Sunday, December 31, 2006

So a new year is coming and I'm gonna be sec 2 le...
been reflecting bout the whole year and realised tt i have not been working hard enough...so i must jia you this year! JIA YOU!
But i am really happy tt this yr at least i could fufill 1 wish...
really happy...I am really gateful tt I was able to complete 1 of the toughest wish that i thought was nearly impossible to do...and so many things have happen this year that i could not believe will actually happen...
One happy thing was NDP...
I had the chance to perform in NDP (not as a marching contingent...tt my dad also do...all army ppl gtg go de...not counted...hehe) its a real experience getting to noe how it felt to be a performer on the big stadium...and this was the last NDP tt was gonna be held in the national stadium...its hard not to feel honoured...really...
and another sad thing was when it happened somewhere near august...actually...2 or 3 days right after NDP...and a few days before my birthday...which really dampened my spirit...
I could not accept the fact tt it would actually happen...
anyway i intend to keep the secret...
now nobody but my family noes...
and if my little sister ever blurt it out...
anw she already did a few times...
but luckily not in front of my friends...
tt time my aunty came...then we juz heard the news...
we din wanna let everyone noe but then this big fat mouth had to let it out...
so anyway...like i said...i dun intend to tell anyone about it...
I wanted to tell huang hao, grace, peiwei...and all my other gd buddies...
i keep thinking who should i tell first? cos i scared i tell u le how will you react?
got a lot of times i wanted to tell ur lar...not tt i dun trust u guys
but dunno lar...i tell le will u guys accept it or not?
i dun wanna lose such great friends like you ya noe?
I feel very scared lar...wad if u will hate me for tt...
i also dun noe how to approach ur to tell cos everytime i think about the topic i really wanna cry...every nite also keep thinking about it...i noe sooner or later will still gotta tell ur or anw ur will find out --->80% chance can find out by my sister i bet...
ok nvm...maybe cos i think too much into it...
then maybe cos i think too much tt i made things worse...
so nvm lar..this was meant to be a happy post i ended up crying bout it...
juz forget it...
when i think its time and i am ready i will juz tell lor...anw now i accepted the fact le...if you can accept the fact i am very thankful to have a friend like you...
so ok!
lets all be happy and facw the new year with happiness!
This year we all moves out le...
I been living in balmeg hill for 10 years liao...
I love tt place but time to move on lar...
I always hated balmeg cos i could not keep a dog lar...and other stuff...
but now i in new house...i kinda regret wad i said earlier...
now i can have a dog...
but its not tt homely feeling i got...
its juz not rite lar...and i will be so far apart frm all my neighbours...this yr i will be playing sparkles alone...its really lonely...
last time we would all gather around downstairs to play sparkle...kana scolded for trying to start a fire...kana scolded for not playing wif danielle...see danielle run away frightened of the sparkle...dat is wad i wish for now...so i have taken things for granted...
and i rmb i buried my hamster somewhere in the soil...and my pet guppies also...maybe if i dig up will see the bones leh? haiz...the memories r limitless...
anw next year got things to look forward to...so i must carry my fighting spirit and look ahead!
Let us all jia you!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! (well...almost...)
btw: i really taken an interest in taiwanese drama...watched tokyo juliet le...now watching smling pasta andwanna watch KO one. gonna watch hana kimi today on pps stream!

rambled on 12/31/2006 01:28:00 pm

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